Not Quite a Life Choice – Surgery (Jazz)

Just a short note. Not quite ready for my surgery yet. I still have a little more clearing to go. It has been slow going. I got an email from the office congratulating me on my one year anniversary. I have been going to them for over a year now. Granted in some cases it was every other month, but it is crunch time now. I  have another three sessions scheduled over the next month. That is a lot of pain to go through for something that some believe is a simple life choice.

So Cindy came home last night and started looking for a channel. She said that someone at work told her she should watch this show so she can prepare. Hmm, okay. I helped her find it and she said she wanted to watch these episodes of I Am Jazz. Turns out, it was the two dealing with her surgery. Needless to say, I cried during parts of it. Cindy offered to change it, but I told her no, we need to watch it. Dr. Marci Bowers was the primary surgeon. It was done at Mount Sinai in New York. For those who think this is a life choice, let me tell you, the pain and the long recovery, not to mention my own experience with surgery prep, no one, no one, would go through that kind of pain for a life choice. I will be back in surgery prep Thursday night. Hopefully, not too many more sessions. I am down to 118 days and counting. I have to have all the surgical area cleared. That is a very painful place for electrolysis. I share my journey in hopes to educate and inform. Hopefully, in doing so I can remove or reduce the hate and ignorance that has driven many to suicide. 

I had gone to First Event. I do a workshop based on my blogs here called Just Own It! It is my hope that in doing so, I can help someone be the person they always wanted to be. I also got to see so many of my friends that for the most part, I only get to see on Facebook. It was so great to see them in real life. They are amazing people.

I also did the Fashion Show again this year. I am just waiting on the pictures. Once again, the ladies and gentlemen from Sephora did an amazing job. They are quick too. I had a burgundy evening gown for my first trip down the runway, which they did up with red highlights for my eyes. My next outfit was a blue sorceress gown. When I came back from the first round, they quickly switched me over to blue highlights. They are amazing! My daughter, Lindsey, and my wife Cindy had come to see me. When I came down after the show, Cindy said I was just glowing. It is amazing when you finally feel the real you coming out.

So I bide my time for the next 118 days. I think about how wonderful it will be next year when I walk out there post surgery. It is a long, arduous journey.

My heart to your heart, one heart, one spirit.
“Lady” Emma Morgaine Croft

About Emma Morgaine Croft

I have been called many things on my journey, Professor, White Wolf, Rainbow Warrior and Spirit Walker. I had a blog on for a number of years. I think the last post was when Papa passed back in 2012. I had also written for World Wide Hippies online mag for a year or so and even won a Golden Note for online writing. I got burned out writing and decided to stop for a bit. The only writing I did was comments on things I shared on Facebook. Unfortunately, that often got into a lot of angry and ugly talk. I try to maintain my cool, but there are just some unreasonable people out there. I found it emotionally and spiritually draining. I saw my niece's blog on here and thought that maybe it was time to resurrect Thoughts On A Cloudy Day. These are my thoughts and meanderings. You can accept them or walk away. I hope that in some way, these thoughts can spark other thoughts and sharing by people around the world. My dream is to make the world a better place for all people. My heart to your heart, one hear, one spirit.
This entry was posted in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s