I keep getting memories from Amazon, Facebook, and OneDrive. One was a picture from Boston Medical Center from my first follow-up visit. It has been a long trip. So much has happened since then. My life began to unravel shortly after that.
Despite all that I have come through, I try to stay positive. I try to be support for others. I try to be a light in their darkness. It is my nature. I have had so much to adjust to. I just keep going. I continue to walk each day. It is calming. I broke 2,508 miles. I got the Monarch Butterfly award for hitting 2500. It is a challenge at times.
I heard from a friend about a 5k that would be in my old neighborhood. I decided to enter. I was satisfied with my first 5k. I did it in 49:56. It was amazing to run in the neighborhood I used to run as a kid. I was able to tell people what to expect on the route. I may do this again but train this time so I can shave my time.
I continue to adjust to my situation. My doctor put me on Escitalopram to even out my mood. That has helped. Probably the biggest has been the addition of Ginger, my Australian Cattle Dog. She has been sleeping in the bed with me. She is my constant companion on walks.
I also have met someone. I have not been dating but after two years of being separated, I think it was time. I met her on OurTime. I am hoping we will connect. She is coming for a visit in August. We have been communicating online and via Messenger video. The challenge is that I need to learn ASL. I have been watching many teaching videos. It will be better when she is here to help me.
Life can throw you many curveballs. It is how you react to that that matters. I could have taken the cheap way and offed myself. I chose to push forward. I chose to be that light for those who follow.
I spent so much wasted time feeling like a castoff. I chose to change that. I chose to move forward. I choose life. I choose to move forward. I choose to live life and to share with those who come in our circle.
Know that I say this from my heart to yours, one heart, one spirit. IN LAK‘ECH
Thoughts On A Cloudy Day 