My life just seems to get worse. My one saving grace is my love for Pauline. Granted there is a lot of issues with our relationship with Pauline. It can be difficult at times due to her being deaf, but we keep working for me to learn sign to communicate. I was just informed that a job I was assigned to do through Robert Half has ended, I was just beginning training, I have had a lack of sleep due to working at night. Well now that they released me, no more nights, no more work, no more life,
I have struggled a lot. I have thought many times about ending my life. Pauline keeps me going, It is so hard to just plod along. I love Pauline and want us to succeed, Unfortunately, everything always seems stacked against us, I just want her to be happy. I want to help her.
Probably the worst is all the feelings of loss, Losing this latest job made things worse, I am spiraling down. I seek death. Life sucks and then you die, I have really come to believe that.. Working at CSQuared was difficult with the lack of training. I was hoping for a good income so I could move us forward, I am to the pint of giving up, but I can never, Day by day, One foot in front of the other. I just have to plod forward, My life sucks and I yearn to die,
I unfortunately am cursed to live to 93. That is why I push forward. Never give up.
My life to your life one heart, one spirit,
Hi Emma – this is Suman. Susan had shared your post on FB and I didn’t see you there so stopping by to say hello and rooting for you. Sorry that you are going through a rought patch. This will pass too. Please take care.
Hi. Emma. Alway hear to lend an ear. Thing will get better the is a light at the end of the tunnel. Keeping you in my prays. Stay strong you have done a lot more than others can do.