I have been writing for a long time. I even won an award for writing when I wrote for World Wide Hippies. Unfortunately, I am not in a good place. I lost my job end of last year and have been struggling to find a new one. I have an interview set up for tomorrow. Hoping. I have been dealing with depression though I hide it well. I miss my family. I moved to New Hampshire and don’t get to see them. I used to see my sister Donna now and then when I was out walking in Fall River. She worked next door at Trusedale Clinic. I used to walk all over Fall River. I challenged myself one birthday to walk all the way out to St. Patrick’s Church. I think it is the Good Shephard now, but I had gone there as a kid. The back story is that I got tired of sitting with the Mother Superior every day and decided to walk across town to my Grandparent’s house on the corner of Oak and Bank. I got in a heap of trouble for that. I challenged myself to climb Seven Hills (President Ave) in Fall River. I did it seven times in one day. Needless to say, I got my elevator award a number of times in Fitbit. I used to do 10,000 steps minimum a day. In winter, I would walk around the kitchen table to get in my steps. Somehow, I always got them.

I miss my kids. I used to be able to go to my daughter’s, whose birthday is today! I did go down to Massachusetts to my sons place for Christmas. I haven’t seen them since. I have been living with a deaf woman who has been teaching me how to sign. That is a good thing. The thing is that I really am struggling. I lost my job end of last year. It was a good paying job. I chose to move to be with my new girlfriend. I fortunately had a good 401k plan so I have cash when I need it. I hope to get back working soon. I hate that my job is finding a job. I struggle with confidence now. I am hoping that things turn around soon, but I struggle to keep positive.

I hope my rudder gets righted soon.

My heart to your heart, one heart, one spirit.