Thoughts On A Cloudy Day

So I have been separated for about two years now. I haven’t really been looking hard as I was waiting for my divorce to be final. I have never cheated on her and won’t start. However, I decided that there is no reconciliation in the future, so decided to put myself out there.

I am on three sites at the moment, Zoosk, Match, and HER. As I have tried to put things out there for those who follow, I will share my impressions of each.

Match is probably one of the most well known. I have been on there for a while, but find that they quickly run out of suggestions. I also note that few are in my area. Hard to believe when I have a medical facility right next door and all those nurses, yet few in my city. I also find that despite me messaging people, few respond back. I did have a few, but no meet and greets. I did post that Fall River was having their Pride Day and sent to a few, but none responded and I didn’t see them there.

Zoosk, is a nickle and dimer. They want you to buy coins so you can see if someone responded to you. You also have to pay for a boost. Match at least gives you one free a month. I usually buy the premium so people can respond to me, but Zoosk wants you to pay. I have seen quite a few people I could be interested in on Zoosk, but they block you from communicating. The other thing with Zoosk is that it doesn’t take your range considerations when showing views or such. I think the last one I had was in Montgomery, AL.

That brings me to HER. HER is only available on your phone or tablet. I haven’t seen a website. The site is kind of hard to figure out, but after a bit, you start swiping. I have yet to have a response on HER.

I am really not placing all my hopes on these sites. Each has pluses and minuses, but it is hard to meet anyone. It would be nice to meet someone and be able to get together for dinner or such. Just friends at first and see where it goes. I would prefer meeting people in person, but I didn’t meet anyone at Pride. Well, I did get to dance with Mrs. B. I have walked by her car countless times and loved the Hamsa and Think Hippie Thoughts stickers. We finally got to meet and we danced.

This one’s for all the lovers
This is for people who care
Those who are willing to help others
Those who are willing to share

Take what you have and release it
Let it fly high in the air
Give help to those who really need it
Hold out your hand if you dare

Everyone loves a love
Everyone needs a friend
Everyone loves a lover
’cause everyone needs one now and then

If you should see your brother crying
Reach out and give him a hand
To leave him without even trying
Would not show your kindness to man

Everyone loves a lover
Everyone needs a friend
Everyone loves a lover
’cause everyone needs one now and then

Show kindness and love to your brother
Help him along the way
And maybe he’ll stop to help another
And brighten another man’s day

Everyone loves a lover
Everyone needs a friend
Everyone loves a lover
’cause everyone needs one now and then.

Love is lost and nothings gained
Everything remains the same
Now that you have gone away
All that’s left for me to say is
I’m lonely, lonely and blue
Yeah, lonely, lonely for you

Why did you leave me
Why couldn’t you stay
If we loved each other
I’m sure we’d find our way

Love is lost and nothings gained
Everything remains the same
Now that you have gone away
All that’s left for me to say is
I’m lonely, lonely and blue
Yeah, lonely, lonely for you

You did not want me
Now I know it’s true
You only used me
But I sure needed you

Love is lost and nothings gained
Everything remains the same
Now that you have gone away
All that’s left for me to say is
I’m lonely, lonely and blue
Yeah, lonely, lonely for you

I gave you my heart
But you wanted more
You gave me the runaround
But I didn’t know the score

Love is lost and nothings gained
Everything remains the same
Now that you have gone away
All that’s left for me to say is
I’m lonely, lonely and blue
Yeah lonely, lonely for you

I’m crazy to be in love with you
I’m crazy there’s nothing I can do
I’ve got a love in my heart
such a passionate fire
burning for the girl I desire
I’m crazy, crazy for you

They told me loves a game that I shouldn’t play
but , when I’m with you I feel like a lump of clay
You mold me and twist me and change my ways
You hold me and tease me, then walk away
I’m crazy, crazy for you

Crazy is the way I’m feeling now
I want to let go, but don’t know how

It hurts to see you with another guy
but I still love you, though I don’t know why
I can’t stand the way you tease and play
but I’m so in love, I just have to say
I’m crazy, crazy for you

I’m crazy to be in love with you
I’m crazy there’s nothing I can do
I’ve got a love in my heart
such a passionate fire
Burning for the girl I desire
I’m crazy, crazy for you.

I messed around too much
so you left me
I can’t blame you
I would leave too
My insides are burning with heartache
I want you but what can I do

Chorus
I guarantee that I’ll love you
and I’ll never play around
I’ll never look at another girl
or stay out on the town
All that I am asking
is that you give me one more try
’cause baby if you leave me
I know I surely will die
I guarantee

I was always playing poker
I’d lose a whole months pay
and the girl at the local honky-tonk
had turned my head her way
but it will never happen
if you take me back today
I know you don’t believe me
but all that I can say is

Chorus

I never meant to bring you sadness
or put you in such pain
While I was thinking of myself
you were slipping away
I know I shouldn’t ask this
after hurting you so
I know you can’t believe ne
But all I can say is

Chorus

I guarantee

I’m the captain on a sailing ship to nowhere
I’ve got nowhere to go in this world
I’m so lonely without my girl

I’ve got no place to call home
I’m tired and so alone
I keep trying to get to you
But there’s nothing I can do
I keep wishing you’d be there
Just waiting at the pier
Waiting for me to come back home

I’m the captain on a sailing ship to nowhere
I’ve got nowhere to go in this world
I’m so lonely without my girl

So many years have gone by
Since I left my baby to cry
I know that I was wrong
But I want to come back home
I’ll do anything for you
I love you, yes I do
So, baby let me come back home

I’m the captain on a sailing ship to nowhere
I’ve got nowhere to go in this world
I’m so lonely without my girl

Do you know I love you
do you know I really care
Do you know I want you
cause I have a love to share
Every time I think of something
something nice to say to you
It’s because I know you love me too

Now all the girls that come around
wanting to take me on the town
can’t measure up to the beauty of your smile
And they know my heart is true
and it’s waiting just for you
’cause you make me feel as happy as a child

Do you know I love you
do you know I really care
Do you know I want you
cause I have a love to share
Every time I think of something
something nice to say to you
It’s because I know you love me too.

With you I’ll love eternally
as long as your heart lies with me
And I’ll cherish each moment spent with you
As the days move swiftly by
I will look at you and sigh
and thank God that you had love me too

Do you know I love you
do you know I really care
Do you know I want you
cause I have a love to share
Every time I think of something
something nice to say to you
It’s because I know you love me too

Living in a world of somber silence
I hear a voice calling out my name
Destiny keeps calling me forward
but all I want is a chance to dream

Now that you have gone away
my life seems an empty stage
On and on pass the endless days
and my heart is filled with passion’s rage

Living in a world of somber silence
I hear a voice calling out my name
Destiny keeps calling me forward
but all I want is a chance to dream

You and I can make it happen
together we could live our dream
But without you I am broken
and reality is just a dream

And all I want is a chance to dream
a chance to dream

Love is like the cactus flower
that blooms in the sand
A flower that brings beauty
to an empty barren land
Love is like the nightingale
that sings it’s pretty song
A melody so beautiful
that follows us along

Love to me is all of these
but I may never see
You took my love, then went away
leaving loneliness for me

Love is like the mountaintops
that seem so hard to reach
Or maybe like the shifting sands
that are blown around the beach

Love to me is all of these
but I may never see
You took my love, then went away
leaving emptiness for me

Love to me is all of these
from the flower to the sea
Joyful and painful
always changing me
Love is when we use the good
to overcome the bad
To put a smile upon the face
of someone who is sad

Love to me is all of these
but I may never see
You took my love, then went away
leaving loneliness for me
All I have is emptiness
and a heart that longs to be free
All I want is to have you back
to make life beautiful for me.

I tried to find a job in the city
but going place to place was no fun
They told me no experience such a pity
but they need a man who knows how to get things done

I told them all I’d learn if they would teach me
they told me they just couldn’t take the time
I told them I’d try to learn it quickly
but I was told not to waste their time

So now I make my money playing guitar
in honky-tonks and seamy little bars
In hopes that someday someone will find me
and turn me into a big recording star

Life so far has been a big disappointment
things I do just never work out right
But I don’t want to live on unemployment
so I’ll play my songs ’til the early morning light

And now I make my money playing guitar
in honky-tonks and seamy little bars
In hopes that someday someone will find me
and turn me into a big recording star.